back again..

dashi dorawa..huhu..nyanyi jap..

its been a while..i miss writing in this blog act..cos now there is no one i can talk to..dulu,ada kwn2..ada best friend yg dgr segala luahan hati..now..we're far apart..i miss u guys!!

hmm..mmg btol..kalo pendam,simpan je dlm hati..mmg rase nk meletup je..xbleh tanggung sorg2.
when no one there to talk to..i feel like empty..now,im starting to write..in here...just for me to express whatever feelings that i had inside..its really a burden.

honestly,,seriously..im not in a good mood rite now..im not in stable state rite now..huh!! what cause me to be like this?? huhu,it's just so stupid reason, believe me! u dont want to know..

i am writing this blog for me..for me to talk to myself. heart and mind is two different things. that's a FACT. sometimes,i need to pujuk hati sendiri when my mind and heart wanting different thing. i mean it..rite now,my mind is thinking the right things. i know it. but my heart wont do the same..

there's something wrong when ur mind is making the right decision..but ur heart still didnt feel and do the same..i tried to console my own heart to accept but..it's just got worst. HURTS AND PAINFUL. why?

it is more painful when u know the right things to do..but others keep doing it in different way. some of them turns their back on..it is really painful. some starts thinking negatively and throw their hate easily..

i am crying. YES,i am crying..but i cant let it out. i wish i can let it out loud but i cant. what is wrong with me? my heart is crying..crying soo badly..but my eyes are soo dry. why? because my mind wont allow me to do that.

Kin Hyun Joong leaving Malaysia..bye bye,till we meet again~

goodbye KHJ..hope u have a safe journey..here's some picture taken at KLIA leaving Malaysia.

such a great weekend with ur presence here..will wait for the next time!!

The moments at Kim Hyun Joong's fan meeting at Pavilion,KL

what a feeling..how to describe exactly what i feel while waiting for him..hehe..first,when i arrived at the Pavilion entrance, i already saw the stage with KHJ poster..huhu..at that time,the place was already full with the fans. by the way,it's already 4pm.. no wonder.

my first mission is to find the perfect place where i can see KHJ clearly..hehe..it's tough!! cos the place was already full. but i decided to be at the side of the stage. actually it is quite near to the stage but there are so many people around me..keep pushing,almost cant breath. in front of us,there's balloons that block us to see the stage. but what we do is, we asked the staff there to move it. and they did. thanks!!

about an hour standing there, as expected in schedule, at 5pm, KHJ arrived. the crowd start screaming loud when we saw the car came in near the stage..the moment finally came!! as KHJ stepped out from the car and walking to the stage, the fans once again screaming like crazy.

OMG!!! what can i say..he's so handsome in person, with his black outfit. as i expected, KHJ is so handsome,tall and his skin is very flawless and fair!! and has a nice voice also. as KHJ start to greet us, we are again screaming wild..haha..the crowd at my side keep pushing..i almost cant breath..really crazy.

KHJ is very concern and considerate towards his fans. that's what make me loves him more. first thing KHJ say after he greet us, is "he wants us not to push each other cos he don't want us to get hurt". at that moment, KHJ were looking at our side and i think i can clearly see his beauty face and i can see his eyes were looking at us..including me..what a lucky day for me!! KHJ asked us to calm and not pushing each other while doing the hand gesture to us.

after that, the mc continue the events with a few questions to KHJ. i'm not really paying attention to the talk since i'm busy looking at him and taking picture of him. and plus, i have to deal with the crazy crowd there. i know u all excited to see him but please behave.

next is autograph session. 10 lucky shoppers chosen, get to take group picture with him. i'm envy them.. huhu..then,when he smile,all of us going crazy again and screaming wild. his smile..how can i describe.. hmm,one of the most beautiful thing i see.

then, autograph session with 200 lucky shoppers. at first the staff place the table at the back of the stage. and i was like "what the heck..how can i see him". i was looking at KHJ that time, and i saw he insisted to put the table at the front of the stage,and he even want to pull the table himself to the front..hehe.. thank to KHJ. he's caring toward his fans. then they immediately move the table to the front. now,i can see him,and everyone else also i'm sure. KHJ is so considerate about his fans.

i'm not waiting until the autograph session end cos there are 200 people, and also the crowd is no joke!! it's really a big,big crowd. i just walked out from there to get fresh air, and after that, around 645pm, i went again to that place and the event were already ended. then, i saw they already cleared the place. then i saw two girls taking picture at KHJ's poster on the stage where KHJ stand just now. and i decided to go there also and taking some pictures with his poster..hehe..

overall, it is really an unforgettable day for me in my life. even it is just a short meeting and i did not get to see him face to face, but still it is the wonderful moment for me.

i will definitely come again if he's coming to Malaysia next time.

just a thought~

do not know why..when listen to hwangbo-im still beautiful, automatically it remind me of shin lang..haha~

is there really have something to do with him,Hwangbo unnie..hehe..but the lyrics kinda sad..TT

don't worry Hwangbo unnie..u are his first wife..hehe..

his thought if he really married,

"When I get married, I will take cooking classes.

I want to cook for her. If my Buin comes home drunk, I want to make her stew in the morning.

For dinner, I will prepare a tasty steak and wait for her. Pour her wine... But this means I'm unemployed.

She will bring in the money. *laughs*" - Kim Hyunjoong

from the making of Playful Kiss.. :p

isn't it great!!

hahaha..my mind just going too far rite now..

coincidence or not..only both of them knows..

another crazy thought of me :-

they met in WGM in 2008

Kim Hyun Joong-Thank You in 2009 (u should see the lyrics..hehe..)

Hwangbo-Im Still Beautiful in 2010

Kim Hyun Joong's Playful Kiss-in his thought if he's really married above..haha..99% of his description refers to buin..huhu..

save me!! from going a little bit far about this..mian hae!!

i'm just too excited about this..=D

Hwangbo-Im Still Beautiful~

Fox Rain~

addicted to this song rite now..

really nice..

missing my best friend~

faz..where are you..hee~

sebab tadi tak jumpa..haha..padahal esok bleh jmpa lg~