back again..

dashi dorawa..huhu..nyanyi jap..

its been a while..i miss writing in this blog act..cos now there is no one i can talk to..dulu,ada kwn2..ada best friend yg dgr segala luahan hati..now..we're far apart..i miss u guys!!

hmm..mmg btol..kalo pendam,simpan je dlm hati..mmg rase nk meletup je..xbleh tanggung sorg2.
when no one there to talk to..i feel like empty..now,im starting to write..in here...just for me to express whatever feelings that i had inside..its really a burden.

honestly,,seriously..im not in a good mood rite now..im not in stable state rite now..huh!! what cause me to be like this?? huhu,it's just so stupid reason, believe me! u dont want to know..

i am writing this blog for me..for me to talk to myself. heart and mind is two different things. that's a FACT. sometimes,i need to pujuk hati sendiri when my mind and heart wanting different thing. i mean it..rite now,my mind is thinking the right things. i know it. but my heart wont do the same..

there's something wrong when ur mind is making the right decision..but ur heart still didnt feel and do the same..i tried to console my own heart to accept but..it's just got worst. HURTS AND PAINFUL. why?

it is more painful when u know the right things to do..but others keep doing it in different way. some of them turns their back on..it is really painful. some starts thinking negatively and throw their hate easily..

i am crying. YES,i am crying..but i cant let it out. i wish i can let it out loud but i cant. what is wrong with me? my heart is crying..crying soo badly..but my eyes are soo dry. why? because my mind wont allow me to do that.